Many people experience thoughts of suicide at some point in their lives. If you're having suicidal thoughts, know that you're not alone. You should also know that feeling suicidal isn't a character flaw, and it doesn't mean you're crazy or weak. It only signifies that you're experiencing more pain or sadness than you can cope with right now.
If you feel that your life is currently in danger because of suicidal thoughts, seek emergency assistance immediately, or go straight to a medical facility. If you are not currently in danger, feel free to check out this mindfulness program - this book can guide you to control suicidal thoughts. You can live your best life possible in the present moment experience.